Disruptive Prayer

  What is it about spending time in the presence of God that completely disrupts the quiet serenity of what I call my life? It is as if the answer becomes a question whenever I turn my heart fully toward heaven. The peace that I have becomes locked onto that one experience and everything else in my life becomes superficial. I am left with a longing to go back, but am required to live through the process of the present time until the moment arrives for the consummation of my desire. It seems like a sickness is upon me. It...