“God we don’t spend enough time together,” I said, recognizing that I was seriously starving for the opportunity of purposeful prayer for an extended period of time.
As I come to grow and appreciate my walk with God on a daily basis, I am often surprised by the things that I forget. There are habits that have brought me to this place that fall behind as I rush forward into the next phase of my adventure into the mystery of God. I forget that the next steps build on the first steps and the foundation must be expanded if the building is going to grow.
It’s like stories of newly married couples who enjoy seeing each other every day and forget that simply being around each other does not automatically lead to deep love and understanding of the other person. After a few weeks or months of enjoying the life that love has created, they wonder where the spark has gone and why the relationship is struggling.
Then one day something unexpected takes place. A word is spoken, a glance is caught, a conversation runs a little longer than usual…and a memory is triggered. That memory is both haunting and refreshing. What is it? What is that feeling that I used to know? Where did it come from? Why did I ever let it go? How do I get it back?
Such questions rushed upon my mind as I reluctantly pulled myself away from prayer to rejoin the class for a group discussion today. I knew where I wanted to be and I knew why. I also knew that something was missing from my life.
In the middle of pursuing life together with God and being fascinated by the wonders and mysteries of His existence, I forgot to take the time where it is just the two of us together – alone. No distractions. Nothing to do. No agenda. Just a time to be together. To talk about nothing – and everything.
That is the place where my life is completely changed. That is where love grows. That is where the foundations are laid for the life that I live every day. It’s not just knowing we’ll see each other again tomorrow and the next day, and every day after that. It’s knowing that for right now, for a few moments, there is only one thing in this world that matters…